Some Stars for a starless night.

Its a bit cloudy tonight, so I gotta turn to other Stars.

Enjoy.

Stars - Your Ex-lover is Dead

Life is fleeting.

I've been going to this Catholic church in Biloxi called Our Lady of Fatima since I was just a little kid. I haven't lived in Biloxi for awhile, but sometimes when I'm in town visiting, I'll go there on Sunday for mass.

About 2 weeks ago, I was driving around in Biloxi, and then I saw a sign that said "Rest in Peace Father Harlow".

Father Harlow has been at Our Lady of Fatima for a good while. In fact, the last time I went to Fatima about 2 months ago, he was still giving sermons. He wasn't that old. When I saw that he had passed away, it made me really sad.

I've lost loved ones in the past, but it never affected me until my father passed away in Winter 2005. I ended up repressing alot of my emotions at the time, and as a result I was extremely unstable. It wasn't until I underwent some mental health therapy that I'm finally able to deal with my emotions regarding his passing.

But if one thing is for sure since the day my Father passed away, I've learned that life is short, and that at a moments notice, God may call to us to come home to him.

Ever since my dad passed, I've taken every passing in my life in a much more sincere way. It was sad and shocking to see that Father Harlow had passed so suddenly, and even though I did not know him well, he was a Priest in my community, and my heart ached as though he was someone dear.

Life is short people.. we never know what will happen.

It pains me to see people in life that don't live up to their full potentials. That they idle without thinking twice about the precious time we still have here.

It's a fleeting feeling, but that's why I try my best to be a good person, and to go out there and live everyday as if it were my last.

The Chain Reaction of Eternity.

Couldn't figure out a more fitting title for this blog entry, so I figured that sounded dramatic enough. It's funny, I was meeting up with a friend last night for drinks. On the way to meet her, her car tire blew out. So we put the spare on, and then drove it back to her place so she could just hitch a ride with me. As it turns out, she accidentally parked the car on a really wet patch of grass in her yard, and her car is stuck in it now until the moisture disappears.

To make a long story short, we spent a fuckload of time trying to get her gay ass car out of the grass today. I don't even want to go into details, but there was alot of time and energy wasted to no avail. I probably don't even have to explain how shitty her day is but I'll explain just to paint you guys a picture. She had a blow out on an almost new tire, which means she might possibly have to buy 2 new tires. Her car is now stuck in the mud at her house, and if it rains again, it will likely be stuck there for a while. She has no way to get around now, and her house guardians (parents) will bitch up a storm. As collateral damage, my beloved Nike Free 4.0 v5's are now covered in mud. And on, and on, and on, and on.

So as I was giving her a ride today, the whole time she's complaining that if she never hit that pothole, this drastic chain of unfortunate events would not have occurred.

Man, how many times has anyone ever thought like that. Shit, I do all the time. Its like, when things go wrong, you're always able to trace it back to one small instance. It's like if you could go back in time and just change one little thing, like take a left instead of a right, take this exit instead of the other one, leave work a little earlier than usual instead of being a little late... I think you can get the picture.

Not much of a point in this blog, just thought that it was something that everyone can relate to. Maybe its the world's way of telling us that attention to detail as well as the bigger picture is important?

Ooh, just remembered this: a really good illustration of a horrible chain of events stemming from one small instance is in the movie Benjamin Button, its the scene that talks about when Ben's love interest gets hurt and had to quit her career of professional dancing. Great movie.

And here I was, thinking that I wasn't going to find a fitting image from the interwebs to accompany this post.

Summer is damn hot.

Some Stars.

This will be a short post. I've been listening to this band called Stars, and I really like them alot. I've been a funk lately where I dont want to hear any of my old music, and like fate determined it.. i found this band. Good stuff, a little emo, but good stuff.

This song is from one of their older albums, they just released a new one called "The Five Ghosts".

If you're really into obscure, yet melodic indie music, give them a listen.

I'm finally starting to hear the music again.

Enjoy this track.

(please, someone teach my dumb ass how to embed)

Click to listen haha..

Stars - Calendar Girl

Mindfuck yo self. (no cats today)

I'm back in New Orleans for a short time. Just came back to take my mom to the airport tomorrow morning. Then its back to Biloxi for me. I've seriously been living out of my car. I'm kinda just bouncing around from friend's house to friend's house with no definite place to stay.

Yet, despite not having a definite physical place to hang my hat.. I feel like I'm at home.

Its wierd, i've been away from Biloxi for so long. And now that I'm back, I have that feeling flooding back into my mind. It's hard to explain.. but I'll try anyways.

I do alot of driving right now, especially at night. Also, I'm spending alot of time on the beach. And its like, it's so hard to believe that for a good 18 years of my life, I used to live here in Biloxi. Its hard to believe that before college, my entire life was this town. That was the extent of my knowledge of the world.

Lets think about that for a second...

Rewind your mind to when you used to be in middle school.

And now think about what your world was, or what you knew of the world outside of books/etc. Can you see how your definition of world instantly shrunk?

I dunno, maybe i'm not explaining this well.. I guess i'm trying to say that alot happens to people when time passes, and your perception of the world and how u belong in the world changes too? Its just wierd how at one point in my life, all I knew about the world was the mall and who can get the most wins at the arcade this weekend...

Summer has taken a turn for the better, and I'm glad that Biloxi feels like home, even though I don't really have a home in Biloxi.